First of all i should sincerly appologize to some of u out there cos i’ve been missing in action for the past two weeks since i touched down on Malaysian soil. And for those who know what happened, thanks for being there for me and my family thru this time.

Up till now its still hard for me to accept that the fact that my late grandma is no longer here with us. its only a month after i got to know about her sickness and by the time i rushed back, i had only a full one week by her side. Kept telling myself its best for her not to suffer because some cancer patients i knew drag on for long period without any positive but negative progress..

Got an urgent phone call from my cousin sis early morning on the second day i got home, i didnt know what to expect. i was in shocked but i managed to drive down to KL with my head blank. I knew i had to be strong to help my mom make it thru. When i stepped into the house i saw my grandma laying unable to speak, tears came streaming. after some time after i calm down and went near my grandma, she said,’popo thought wont be able to meet u already.’ Even though for only a week, i was glad i got bk in time. My grandma is someone close to heart to me and its really pain to see her go.
In this short one week, i got to see the different personalities of some people and sad to say that its really dissapointing to know at times like this $$ is so important. I’m starting to have very negative impressions towards them and they dont deserve my respect even though they are my seniors. Whats on their mind i have no idea, being in the education ministry, this is what they practice?? no wonder our education system is so ‘kaputed’. And getting high paid job doesnt mean they can pretend money can buy the care and love. Totally upset with all their doings.

After all this years of living under stress and pain, i think my grandmama had enough and hope she rest in peace. She really deserves to come to an end of all the sufferings. Hope she knows that she will always be the treasure in my heart.